Monthly Archives: Setembro 2014

The Fear


All the words left unsaid
All the paths we didn’t take,
Held by the fear of going beyond ourselves,
Weight still on my heart.

Fearing the rejection, I rejected
Wanting to seem cool, I grew apart.
My fears tricked me and ran free
Leaving me in this meaningless swirl of life.

(This dangerous illusion that we call comfort
Keeps us captive in a unrealistic nest.
A nest so pleasant and so simple,
that makes us give up on all the rest.

It constantly pulls us in
As we strive into the real world.
It makes us doubt and resist
More than we really would.)

How can a moment define so much?
How can it effortlessly throw us apart?
After all the struggle, all the doors that cracked open,
Just waiting for time and trust to knock them down.

How can fear win over our hearts?

Pond of tears

In this pond of tears made,
remain the skeletons of fish I once knew.
Some took here a longer detour
while others brought a devastating storm. 
They taught me how to swim,
but not how to breath under water.
On the surface, I feel mistakenly safe,
But as I dive I struggle and cave.
Too much was expected,
too much was given,
too much over-done to make up for the uneven.
They all played their part. 
They carried each drop into this heart, 
but none dried it again.
It dried on its own, every single day.
I’m striving for an ocean of laughter,
of both motion and quietness.
An ocean that frees me from this pond’s constraints.
An ocean that finally teaches me how to breath under water.